Thursday, January 6, 2011

wahhhh!!!mcm mne ni???

first of all....yeahhhh!!!da habes exam(paper theory je la)...thank God...
but still,my performance is nt a satisfactory..terok btol..i cn jz imagine my marks later...10 out of 60...waahhhh!!!!ni over kan...tp nk bwat mcm mne,dat's da upcoming fact la...padan muke kau cherry..spe soh maen2..

td jz finished up my pharmacology paper...it was horrible i tell u..it was a 2 hours paper..n sye 'berjaya' menyiapkannya in jz within da first 1/2 an hour...sooooo baddd...i dunno wat to answer,it was like nothing coming out from my head..empty..yeah..coming into the examination hall with an empty head..mcm telur yg dah tida isi dlm die..huaaa.....xpenah rse seterok mcm ni...
smpaikan in da middle of da exam,i totally gave up and lose hope utk jwb dis paper..i dunno wat to write,i dunno wat to think,i couldnt recall anything i've read..

habesla ni.....mmg ikut hati nak je angkat tgn n say 'sir,i want to go out nw cz i dunno anything'...gosh...tp kang malu sndiri plus kne marah lak..so,paksa la jugak diri ni utk crap anything on da paper,asal nmpak pnoh jwapan..wth..such a bad student kan...n everytime cekgu lalu je mmg tutup la paper xnk kantoi xtules pape kan...haihhh...i never thought dat pharmac would be dis hard sbb mase first internal dlu ok je..haihhhhh,haihhhh n haiiiiihhhhhhhh....ape nak jadi la..if only my parents know,they must be ver3 dissappointed wif me..pnat je hantar blaja jauh2 tapi xdek hasil...huu..sedeyh la...

so after dis mmg kne kekalkn momentum blaja yg ade skang for the upcoming ones....xleyh dah bwat doodles kat atas exam sheets..aiyayaiii..kang kne tarek scholar sape susah????pkay la cik cherry oii,jgn ingat nk enjoy je...blaja awk tu lagi utama..huhu

so,setakat sni je la bebelan saya kali ni...tgh berkabung juga sbnarnye sbb xdpt jwb paper td...pas ni nk tdo sat pastu start fresh balek..ready for practicals yg lebeyh menakutkan itu!!!

chaiyokk!!!xoxo

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

my deadly pathology

hye guys...hari ni saya nak bebel pasal exam saya...
as referred to the tittle of this post,yeee...hari ni saya exam pathology..hw was it???urgghhh...disaster wa cakap lu...teruk la,the questions xlah susah mane pon,tapi disebabkn lack of preparation,agak mengecewakan la...

balek je from exam,muke saya mmg xbley blah..masam je..xde mood lansung...bile tgk dlm cermin dah mcm bwah jeruk da muke tu..haiyoo..down gile with my performance just now..tp,bila fikir balek,maybe salah sendiri juga,baca sekali bukakn ke sgt inadequate...just imagine...
chronology 'usaha semalam'...

monday,3/1/11

11am-1pm..

tgh jawab paper microbiology dgn bersungguh2...moga2 hasilnya nnt memberansangkan
about 1.30pm...
letih betol bru balek exam...smpai je bilik terus sembahyang zohor..after tukar baju n makan2,terus ngadap buku pathology...tp sebenarnye otak tgh ngeng2 lagi after jawab exam...tapi tahan je la sbb nak habeskan bace patho punye pasal...mase ni rse macam xleyh nak absorb lansung ape yg dibaca,tp after a while ok la balek...

4pm...

aahhhh!!!!!dah pukul 4 da ke???sungguh xkusangka....bace one topic xhabes2 dari tadi...huhuiii..melampau ni...bace lagi,bace lagi...xpe...go fatin go!!!after solat asar troskan baccan lagi...jam dah nak dekat pukul 6 dah..kalo kat India sat gi masuk maghrib pulok...kepala dah mmg nak reject je semua ape yg dibaca..mcm allograft rejection plak kan...penuh,tepu..dah xnak dah....sabar,sabar...(banyak lagi xsentuh lagi oiiiiii!!!!!!)sempat ke ni?????

8pm...

okay,dah pukul 8..mula rase risau...dr chapter haematology terus shift to chapter general pathology...ok..go!!!tgh2 bace cell injury and adaptation,alamak!!!inflammmation n healing xbace lagi plak!!!gelabah dan terus gelabah..xpe2,habeskan bace part apoptosis dulu bru shift ke inflammation part...see...betapa xtentu halanya saya waktu ni...ni xkena,tu xkne...time ni ok lagik...tahap kawalan emosi masih dalam keadaan stabil

10pm...

wwuuiiiiiiii!!!!da kol 10 dah...time ni bace mmg dah maen2 je la....tension...xleyh dgr bunyi pelek2 sket..mesti rse nak mengamuk....mate plak rse berat sungguh,otak plak melayang2 ntah ke mane...xbley jadi ni..chapter byk lagi xcover...buat coffee,minum(tanpa pengetahuan roommate sbb die mmg xley bau kopi ni...)aahhh!!!!!!!!!panik2!!!!

ok,mmg ni non-stop dok kat meja...rse nak tdo tp gagahkan diri lagi...xboley2...sacrifice kan tdo tu dulu...exam lagi penting...

1am...

shotottttt......dah kol 1????xperasan plak..sbb mate tgh segar effect frm caffein la ni...roommate pon tgh struggle nmpaknya..tp xkesahla..die hebat,xbace die sma dgn 'baca' saya...ahh..lantak pi la...yg penting habeskan ur part dulu..troskan usaha!!!

aihh...dah nak pukul 3 pagi,ok,xboleyh ni..kne tdo jugak..kang takot tgh exam blank plak nnt..ok,tdo,set jam..bangon la kol 4 lebey cmtu...smbung lagi..tp sebenarnye mmg otak xley terima..my body n mind can't bear any more pathology stuff..dah xlaraaattttt.....
tp teruskan jugak...

tuesday,4/1/11

7am...

mandi2,pastu smbung dok kat meja stadi..sbelah tgn pegang buku,sbelah lagi pegang roti..nyam3 kunyah roti tu..pastu teguk lagi air nescafe dlm mug yg dah suam2 kuku...tetibe dgr plak tempe(panggilan kami bdak2 malaysia utk penduduk tempatan kat India ni) mane tah bwat konsert..lagu yg saye xpaham tu plak kuat bebebau..uiihhhhh..tension aku..ingat bukak tingkap nk dpt fresh air,tp buat bising je,kasi gua hangin satu badan..buku xhabes2 lagi baca..rse cm nk tolak dlm minyak panas je sape yg sabotaj pagiku yang memrlukan ketenangan itu...tutupla tingkap balek

9am...

haiyaaa!!!time ni mmg rse nak surrender...information yg masok dlm otak ni smue tunggang langgang...ni xingat,tu xingat..kalo ingat lupe plak bnde tu under heading yg mne...huaaa!!!!adekah ini sbb effect tido kurang dr 3 jam??haha..xde la kot kan..kalo ngadap facebook tgh2 malam buta smpai tdo 2 jam pon ok je esoknye...

plak harini xfaham kenapa...within 1 hour boleyh ,masuk toilet smpai 3 kali...atonic bladder kah aku ni??or sympathetic discharge yg exaggerated sbb minum kopi byk sgt n ditambah plak dgn cuaca sejuk nan gigil??entahla...tp pelik btol la ni...ahh...xkesahla..still,patho xhabes dibaca lagi..

10.45am...

time utk pergi exam!!!hoyeahhhh.....ape nak jawab ni..bila ngomong sama kawan2 dgn pasal rse risau ni,biasela..semue soh btawakkal,yakin diri(dah habes bace la tu boley la ckp mcm tu..hehe)biarla...smpai depan exam hall,bile tanye kat kawan2 semua pakat dok kate xhabes bace lagi(oohh..tipu2...xcaye kat korang)..semua dok kate xtau nak jawab apela,mesti fail la...

TAPI.....

semasa di dalam exam hall.....

uiihhh mase tinggal lagi 15 minit..ape yg aku nak ngarot lagi ni kasi paper nmpak full..tetibe,dtgla pakcik attendant dgn stapler...semue org dlm hall bg paper utk di-stapler kan sbb majority yg gne 2 or more answer sheets...smpai kat tempat saya,hanye gelengan kepala saja yg mampu saya berikan...nak stapler pebendenya kalo xsmpai habes pon gne answer booklet tu??terok kan???tension2..kawan2 yg ckp 'ohh..saye mesti xley jawab' atau 'ohhh...sia2 je bwak additional sheet ni...xgne pon nnt'...waahhhh!!!!!betapa omongan kosongnya bende2 tu!!!!!tipu giler weyhh

sekali tgk org2 yg ckp2 cmni la yg tmbah smpai 2-3 additional sheets...gabra,cuak,panik xley nak kate la....rse terok sgt sbb knapa rse diri ni sorg je yg xdpt jawab n bg jawapan tepat berjela2 tu...

1pm...

keluar je exam hall,semua muka kawan2 ceria2 belaka...hebat...semua gembira n bergurau senda(sbb kalo diorg xley jawab semua ngadu kate 'aku nnt fail' la,'soklan membunuh' la...)saye sorg je yg speechless sbb xtahu ape yg dok ngarut atas paper td...haihh...down2...smpai rse xnak ckp ngn sape2 sbb terlalu kecewa ni...

skang rse nk luahkan perasaan..tu yg dok bebel kat sini...alangkah betapa rse ketinggalannye saya compared to my other friends..i feel like i'm the worst one among them..paling terok,xleyh diharap,balek kampung tanam jagung je....sedeyhh,sedeyhh...tp kan as i said..salah sendiri jugak..xtau manage time dgn baek,ni la jadinye..so skang pon dah amek mase nearly one hour membebel kat post ni,lebeyh baek saye smbung stadi utk forensic medicine pulak kn...

bye now...XOXO

p/s: harap dpt kuatkan hati n semangat utk go on wif my life yg rse ketinggalan ni...terokkan???